The Dreaded Two Week Wait

Faith

–noun 1. confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.
2. belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.
3. belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion: the firm faith of the Pilgrims.
4. belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.
5. a system of religious belief: the Christian faith; the Jewish faith.
6. the obligation of loyalty or fidelity to a person, promise, engagement, etc.: Failure to appear would be breaking faith.
7. the observance of this obligation; fidelity to one's promise, oath, allegiance, etc.: He was the only one who proved his faith during our recent troubles.
8. Christian Theology. the trust in God and in His promises as made through Christ and the Scriptures by which humans are justified or saved.


wait   
–verb (used without object) 1. to remain inactive or in a state of repose, as until something expected happens (often fol. by for, till, or until): to wait for the bus to arrive.
2. (of things) to be available or in readiness: A letter is waiting for you.
3. to remain neglected for a time: a matter that can wait.
4. to postpone or delay something or to be postponed or delayed: We waited a week and then bought the house. Your vacation will have to wait until next month.
5. to look forward to eagerly: I'm just waiting for the day somebody knocks him down.


hope   
–noun 1. the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.
2. a particular instance of this feeling: the hope of winning.
3. grounds for this feeling in a particular instance: There is little or no hope of his recovery.
4. a person or thing in which expectations are centered: The medicine was her last hope.
5. something that is hoped for: Her forgiveness is my constant hope.

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It is the morning of Day 4 bedrest and I am going crazy!!! This morning I woke up extremely anxious and do not want to have to wait any longer. This by far is the worst part. Mario has been fantastic. He is really attentive and has my meals ready before I even ask. I wake up each day from a phone call from Jenn who has been my saving grace. I guess 28 years of friendship says a lot about somebody. She has been uplifting and gives me thoughtful things like mommy to be tea. The dogs have cuddled up to me all day and never want to leave my side. My mom is coming over today to make us more food. Tomorrow I finally get to take a shower and boy do I need it!! Maybe I will feel human again! Like I said this waiting is extremely difficult and I am stiff and my hips are so sore from the injections. My mind is constanly hoping for the best but so nervous. You realize all you have left is Faith, Trust, and Hope.
You have done everything possible up into this point in time and now we must hand it over to God. At he beginning I handed it over to him and that is how I got through the journey and now at the end I must hand it over to him once again. I keep desperatley searching for signs that I am pregnant. And I although I know it is way to early I can't help but hope.

Embryo Transfer

On March 1st, 1993 a young mexican kid who can from immigrant parents was impressionable and still trying to figure out who he was and where he belonged asked a blonde haired girl from a middle class family who was somewhat sheltered and naive to be his girlfriend. It was innocent but yet so unexpected. They were extremly different and came from backgrounds that were so opposite!! What suprised everyone is that it blossumed into one of the most intense and loving relationships ever. And 16 years later on that exact date March 1st, 2009 that they had celebrated as their anniversary for so many years became even more special because 2 embryos that had been artifically matured were implanted in her on that same date. After six years of infertility and never knowing that their love had created anything on this date they knew that those 2 embryos were a symbol of their dedication and determination to each other and to their love. They gowned up and as they wheeled her into the operating room he kissed her hand and she silently said a prayer.

So we made it through embryo transfer. They implanted 2 very strong embryos who are very advanced in stage into my uterus. We couldn't have asked for a better outcome. Now bedrest and the long two week wait for our pregnancy test. I am so excited that we have completed one whole cycle of IVF. I am shocked that I actually did it and now I am here in bed waiting to see the results. Some say this is the most difficult part. I believe this because your mind wanders and you have so much time to think about it. Mario is taking great care of me. He barely lets me get up but my hips and killing me from the injections and not being able to move around. I have my embryos picture next to me and I keep telling myself that they are in there and trying to settle. My parents came yesterday and made me a huge basket of GOOD LUCK stuff like a shamrock plant and other goodies. I thought it was so special because when I was born in March my aunt and uncle brought my mom a shamrock plant for good luck and it still is in our front yard. My mom made us a yummy dinner and the Christina came today. It was so nice to have her in bed next to me talking and laughing together. She is truly a special friend that I feel so blessed to have in my life. Her stomach is starting to show from her baby boy that is brewing in her that I hope my children will be close to one day SOON!!! Mario's parents are on their way over right now so it has been nice to have company.